Pushing My Comfort Zone With Bouldering

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A Life Governed By Fear

Okay, that subtitle may be a bit of an exaggeration, but I’ve always felt like my phobias have gotten in the way of me doing what I want to do.

My First Day Bouldering

I went back and forth on whether to try bouldering for over a year. That whole time, I kept watching rock climbing videos online, with part of me really wanting to try it.

What’s Next?

I started going to the bouldering gym fairly regularly after that, although I’ve still stuck with the least popular times of the day. Through bouldering, I’ve discovered a few surprising things about my fear of heights:

  • The severity of my fear varies from day to day, and I normally can’t predict how I’ll feel until I actually get on the wall. Some days it’s very minor, other days I can’t bring myself to get to the top at all.
  • Even when I am terrified, I’ve gotten better at “shutting down” my brain and pushing through it. My ability to do this varies from day to day as well.

I’m a lawyer and teacher from North Carolina. I write about sobriety, mental health, running, and more. Buy me a “coffee” at ko-fi.com/benyaclark.

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